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WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage : cold mineral water

2. Last phone call : zack
3. Last text message : sarah
4. Last song you listened to : decorate - kuizz shah's cover
5. Last time you cried : 2 days ago

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice : nope
7. Been cheated on : lol of course
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : yes
9. Lost someone special : my dear brother
10. Been depressed : all the time
11. Been drunk and threw up : no

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 
12: purple
13: navy blue
14: black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend: certainly
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: u can trust me in this
18. Met someone who changed you: yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: never really cared to find out
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: umm no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: ntah
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: sometimes i do
26. What did you do for your last birthday?: went out with sarah, as usual
27. What time did you wake up this morning?: 6
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: spazzing with sarah lol

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: msu and mmc's approval SO I CAN FREAKING LEAVE EGYPT ALRDY
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : date no one
32. What are you listening to right now: random awesome - yuna
33. Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: tom myspace???????
34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: the government
36. Whats your real name: Nurul Fathin Binti Isa
37. Nicknames: ateng, paten, cise
38. Birth month: june
39. Zodiac sign: gemini
40. Male or female: female.
41. Primary School: sk (p) tengku mariam, sk seri beroleh, sk taman desa jaya
42. Secondary School: smk (p) sultan ibrahim, smk taman desa jaya, smk mohd khalid
43. High school/college: mansoura university
44. Write whatever you want here: i hope everything will be okay in egypt and be accepted by msu
45. Long or short hair?: long
46. Height: 165????
47. Do you have a crush on someone: haha yes
48. What do you like about yourself: my height kot
49. Piercings: yes
50. Tattoos: haha i wish
51. Righty or lefty: right


FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: nope
53. First piercing: when i was 4
54. First best friend: aurora. back in the states she was my only friend lol
55. First sport you joined: netball
56. First vacation: langkawi, when i was 2 haha
58. First pair of trainers: tak ingat dok

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: havent brushed my teeth meng
60. Drinking: MY SALIVA
61. I'm about to: fart hmm
62. Listening to: didnt u just asked me mad sounds - arctic monkeys
63. Waiting for: adib's bbm haha

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids: I WANT 4
65. Get married: yes lah
66. Career: a doctor insyaallah

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: hook up


HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: oi
77. Drank hard liquor: oi
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yep
79. Sex on first date: oi
80. Broken someone's heart: yeah....
82. Been arrested: in a dream once haha
83. Turned someone down: yeah.....
84. Cried when someone died: i couldnt cry....
85. Fallen for a friend: ;)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: no
87. Miracles: no
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: yes
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: oi
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no
95. Did you sing today: i probably will
96. Ever cheated on somebody: no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: 2007
98. The moment you would choose to re-live: The moment before this date : the day i chose to study in egypt
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: hmm
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: brb

sleep

wei i can't sleep. i'm overthinking about almost everything. about my studies, my emotions, my relationship with people. sakit otak lah macam ni hari-hari. kenapa mesti end up jadi macam ni? why isn't there any resolution? why aren't people helping us? tak habis-habis dengan false hopes, acah macam nak tolong but end up nothing jugak. wei we're young lah we can't think something like this on our own. we need help, encouragement, support. 

can't sleep

they said crying helps to ease our frustrations, sadness, burden. but what even i can't even cry right now. i tried, but couldn't. 

can't sleep

results, disappointments and hope

its been 4 days after the results were out and i still can't believe....sigh. from the deep of my heart i know there must be something wrong somewhere along the way and i should really be grateful i don't have to repeat. redha, the most powerful word and action when it comes to situations like this. alhamdulillah i was able to get a grip and not falter to giving up. it took 2 days for me to contain as much strength that i could to face my dad and tell my results. yes it must be disappointing for him. but surprisingly, he gave the most wisest words an almost-giving-up person like me finally found hope again.

although it breaks me when a friend of mine got good results and his dad kissed her on the forehead saying his so proud of her daughter, i just know this could be my key to inspiration to double or triple up my efforts.i failed to make my dad proud for this sem and i promise my life to make it up for my upcoming years, insyaAllah. one kiss on the forehead, i'll be the happiest girl alive.

finals

sooooooooo there's only one day left for my freaking nightmare so far ((oh for god's sake its my finals)) and i just caaaaaaan't wait for it to end. i don't know if i have put all my efforts in but i'm damn sure i worked my ass off not to get too comfy from where i am now lol fuck it lets screw this shit!

who are you to talk about appreciation when you were the one who treated me like a stranded dog. who are you to say i changed when you were the one who turned your back on me. who are you to claim i left you when you were the one who made me do it. mind your fucking words before i fucking screw your life up. 

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Thanks for coming guys. Love you to bits ♥

Friends forever. Promise.

This is the time guys. We are finally parting ways. Even we hate it so much but this is the fact of growing up that we must face eventually and yeah, this is it. I'll miss you guys. Miss you guys so much. You guys are my family. And once a family, forever a family.